Doubts

February 27, 2026

This is the plaque Terry gave me one week after we met. We displayed it at our wedding.

If you’ve been reading our posts for the past couple of weeks, it may seem like we had a fairy tale beginning to our relationship. I admit, with all the physical signs we were given, we knew we were meant to be together. But speaking for myself, it hasn’t been all rainbows and sprinkles. Or should I say butterflies and bluebirds?

I have suffered from anxiety and lack of self-worth for years. Still have issues even today, although not as severe.

What did Terry see in me? Why did he believe I was worthy of his love? After all the failed relationships in my life, why was I suddenly good enough to be loved the way he loved me?

He didn’t tell me right away what he heard God telling him the night we first met. See our post from February 8 for that full story. It was probably a good thing at the time. . . it may have scared me away. But when Terry did tell me, it helped to ease my mind. That and a lot of prayer and Bible study.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7, “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

This is the kind of love we have for each other. Generous, supporting, kind.

Philippians 4:6-7, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

 And this is what I strive for daily. To have God’s peace.

This is what I wish for each of you. . . real love and God’s peace.